In producing this audio paper, I set out to answer two questions:
1 – What is the purpose of academic reading and writing within the context of UK art studies and does it benefit us as artists in terms of improving our practice?
2 – From the perspective of a student with undiagnosed ADHD, does this reading and writing create barriers to achievement?
To be completely honest, I think this was a subject matter born more out of instinctive frustration than anything else, and if I had the opportunity again (which I will) I would write about something else. I chose the subject matter when I was going through a bit of a frustrating time in life (money problems, too busy with outside work to focus properly on university work etc.), and because I was struggling to come up with ideas based around my fields of interest, I wrote about a subject that was based on my lack of ideas at the time and an area that I personally struggle with in my studies – that is, writing. I don’t think this is necessarily a bad idea, and it’s a topic that genuinely interests me that I don’t feel has really been talked much, however the latter point also became an issue for me. Because it’s not been talked about much I couldn’t find much material to reference and critique – this is why I decided to go out and conduct interviews as a way of obtaining some primary research. I also don’t feel that it was the most helpful topic in terms of improving my practice, as it doesn’t really go hand-in-hand with any of the practical work I’ve made so far. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing but in future I’d like to write more around my fields of interest.
That being said, I do still feel as if I’ve learnt some points to take away, and I think I’ve learnt more about my process and how I study. I’ve learnt more about the value of academic reading and writing within art studies, even though in some ways I have critiqued it from the perspective of someone with an undiagnosed learning disability. The process of making an audio paper is also something that’s been new to me, and I find it a far more expressive and practical way of getting my thoughts down, even if it is a little more work and a little more technically demanding. I have found the process difficult, however it feels much more rewarding to have produced an audio paper over a black and white slab of writing. I’d like to make an audio paper for next year’s dissertation, however it could be beneficial to add more abstract elements which I didn’t include this time.
So, did I answer those two questions successfully? I’m not sure – if I were to do this again I would write less about the history of universities and technical colleges as I don’t feel it’s too relevant to the point I’m trying to get across (or at least I didn’t explore it deeply enough within the time I had). I would have liked to explore more writing around the subject, and I still find it frustrating that the best answer I had from my student interviews kept deleting itself when I tried to place it in the paper. I really feel as though this would’ve added something. However, I still made an effort to gather opinions of students and academics which is a good thing to have done. If I had more time I would’ve maybe interviewed more students with specific learning disabilities to ask their opinions, as I feel this paper was written too much from my own perspective. A lot of the problems with time come from my own time management, which I will hopefully be getting support with by the end of the academic year.
The mixing of the paper was adequate, and I didn’t feel like much needed to be done to the tracks. However, I didn’t get the chance to hear it in one of the studios at LCC, which I will make the time to do next time.
Having said all this, I don’t think it’s all doom and gloom and I’m still happy with myself for finishing this audio paper which initially felt very daunting. There are aspects that I’m proud of, like the sound effect of the continuous scribbling on the page that helped create a soundscape that was supposed to add a background level of noise that hopefully can give the listener an idea of all the sounds that occurred and often distracted me whilst I was writing the script for the paper. This also added a slight performative (albeit non-vocal) aspect as I recorded it in one 10 minute take, which I think was successful.
Overall, I think the paper could have been better. Next time I make an audio paper I will take more time to carefully consider what topic I choose instead of just getting carried away with one subject before I carefully evaluate what else I could cover. I learnt a lot about my own processes and that is a positive, however in future I would like to research more perspectives and choose a topic I can do more reading around. I’m considering doing my dissertation on the humour within art and how it can sometimes be perceived to have lower validity, as there is a lot of writing around this and it’s more relevant to my practice as an artist who likes to make pieces with a sense of humour. However, for now I am somewhat happy with my paper, and looking forward to carrying on with future projects.